Jammed: Full into Capacity

For my 22 years of existence, I have been dependent to my parents. Yeah, shame on me. When I graduated from college, I was hoping to get a good job where I can finally have money of my own. But I had a pre-medical course (BS Biology) and everybody thought that I should pursue medicine cause that’s where my future is. With my course, if I really want to go to the field related to it, I only had four options at that time – teach, go to research, have a master degree, or go to medical school. I never wanted to teach (though my mother is a teacher) because I think I have little patience, I never wanted to go research because I hated making bunch of papers and experiments were too tiresome for me. I never really appreciated research even when I was in my undergraduate course. Having a master’s degree was not appealing to me because I will land to the same options I had for my bachelor’s degree. Therefore, the only option I have was go to medical school so until now, I am still getting support from my parents.

Pros and cons of being dependent to my parents:

• I do not have to work to get my basic needs; but I sometimes hesitate to ask money from them for luxuries. How sad.
• I have loving parents but strict ones. Sometimes, I still feel like I am that high school girl who needs permission to her parents to do whatever she wants, and sulk if she did not get it. Yesterday, we had our batch outing to rejoice for our success during our second year in medicine but since my father did not allow me, I had to obey. No, hindi ako nagmukmok. I have gotten over that attitude years ago after I have realized that it is of no use when my parents said “No.” They never allow me to go to the beach with friends (it has to be a family outing). We had a cousin kasi who had a vehicular accident when going home after their beach escapade. I cannot accept invitations from some friends to go on a vacation with them because I am restricted. They only allow me if it is school-related like spending over night with classmates to work on some school requirements. Yeah, you might say that I have a boring life, but what can I do? I have pessimistic parents.
• I am assured of daily allowance but sometimes I get reluctant to ask for an extra.
• I am free of household chores, that why until now I don’t know how to cook and do the laundry. I know, I should blame myself for this also. Haha.

So there! I hope your not bored reading about my boring life.

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